Assalamualaikum readers. Today, I would like to share what I've been through since past months and what lessons I've learnt. Oh before I forget, how are you? I hope you're feel so well. Well, let's start. Bismillah...
As I've mention about Hazid on my previous posted, today I'll share about him, again. Hahaha yes. He blocked me several time since last year, but since I put his name on my Twitter, he unblock me from all the social networks. How do I know he unblocked me? I stalked his Twitter and Whatsapp. I can see his tweets and the online is appeared. And yesterday, his name pop-up from the notification section, said that Hazid joined the Telegram. Yes, I have Telegram, but barely use it, I prefer Whatsapps. So, I poked him, just sent "Hazid?", then I fell asleep hahahaha. Early morning I checked phone, yes his name is appeared on my notification. At 10pm (something) he replied, "?". At 12am he sent "Hello there". I just replied, "Aish here". He is the only guy called me Aish or Pinkers. 2 hours later, I received another text from him, "Long time no see. How are you?". I don't know how to react. HE SUPPOSED TO UNBLOCK ME IF HE MISSES ME OKAY! Okay done. So, we had short conversation, just to knowing that we were okay and had small talked about studies life. You know, both of us kan students. I avoid to ask and questioning him if he is still mad at me.
I'm not telling this to anyone, including Tyra. She's would be extremely mad at me if she knew I still contact with Hazid. She can supports me for anything I want do, but Hazid a big NO. She knows, I will be hurt again and again. She said, "move on eca, you deserve someone better than him", I said, "he is not only better than anyone else, he is the best". No one understands me. No one. I'm all alone when I start talk about Hazid.
To my truly best friend, Athirah. I have no one, but only you to support me and Hazid. I am sorry, I told you that I moved on, I was lying you. I said that I delete his number, yes I did. But I memorize his number, I can't erase from my memory. I told you I've delete his pictures, I did. But I'd burned into CD before I delete them. I can't do that. I feel like, I'm trying to destroy my another half.
I have no one, but I have faith and Allah do listens to my doa. I've learnt not everything we want will easy to get. You should have highly motivated, patience and don't ever give up. This is some story I want to share with you. Thank you for reading this deadly post. And thank you for your time! :D
Enjoy your day
your truly love, Aish.