Asssalamualaikum readers.
Maaflah sebab dah lama tak update blog ni since busy and very hectic lately. Hmm, sepanjang semester baru ni aku belajar yang hidup ni akan lebih susah dan sukar setiap hari. tapi jangan risau, tak selamanya hidup ni akan sukar, nak menuju ke destinasi yang cantik dan jauh perlu melalui jalan-jalan yang berliku, menaiki bukit, menuruni buki; bergitu juga kehidupan, ada turun naik.
benda ke-2 ialah, tak kira kita ni baik macam mana pun. orang takkan suka kita. yeap, orang takkan tak pernah tak puas hati dengan kita. but life is must go on, right? tak kira bertapa palat pun hidup, seseorang itu kena tabah dan sabar, perlu ada kekuatan diri. Losing my best friend is one of the worse things ever happened in life. but people once said that, you are not growing up if you are not lose any close of your friends. but I took peoples for granted, yes she left me.
benda ke-3 ialah, nothing ever lasts forever. NOTHING. every person came into your life is to gives you a lesson. for example, I thought she will be my friend forever, but remember, nothing lasts forever, a friend left. the moment I said thought is, that is the moment i took her for granted. maybe, i didn't appreciate her, maybe she not comfortable with me. so many things are playing in my mind. they are keep make me thinking. that is how friend gives you a lesson.
I learnt so many lessons in very hard ways, that is how I getting tougher every time shit hits me. jadikan tahi itu seperti baja, tanam dalam2, biar baja tu yang buat pokok kehidupan kita hidup dgn subur. maksudnya, tahi itu ibarat pengalaman buruk, make the shit (your bad experiences) to improve your life to gets better. Remind yourself, things are will be better, it will be fine. Be optimist, every difficult road leads to beautiful journey.
Thank you for make me think wiser, make me be more tough to face the cruel world. Thank you for everything. I love you, but I love me, more. I am so sorry for hurt you secara tidak sengaja atau sengaja, I am a human. Human always make mistake. Once again, thank you to who still stay and left. You give me one of the precious and priceless experiences. Thank you for having me once in your life, thank you for everything. I loved you, I still love you and I will love you. You know where to find me, I got nowhere to go. I am here, still here. Thank you~ :)
28 November 2015
28 October 2015
mistake: Learn or Run from it?
Assalamualaikum readers. Today, I would like to share what I've been through since past months and what lessons I've learnt. Oh before I forget, how are you? I hope you're feel so well. Well, let's start. Bismillah...
As I've mention about Hazid on my previous posted, today I'll share about him, again. Hahaha yes. He blocked me several time since last year, but since I put his name on my Twitter, he unblock me from all the social networks. How do I know he unblocked me? I stalked his Twitter and Whatsapp. I can see his tweets and the online is appeared. And yesterday, his name pop-up from the notification section, said that Hazid joined the Telegram. Yes, I have Telegram, but barely use it, I prefer Whatsapps. So, I poked him, just sent "Hazid?", then I fell asleep hahahaha. Early morning I checked phone, yes his name is appeared on my notification. At 10pm (something) he replied, "?". At 12am he sent "Hello there". I just replied, "Aish here". He is the only guy called me Aish or Pinkers. 2 hours later, I received another text from him, "Long time no see. How are you?". I don't know how to react. HE SUPPOSED TO UNBLOCK ME IF HE MISSES ME OKAY! Okay done. So, we had short conversation, just to knowing that we were okay and had small talked about studies life. You know, both of us kan students. I avoid to ask and questioning him if he is still mad at me.
I'm not telling this to anyone, including Tyra. She's would be extremely mad at me if she knew I still contact with Hazid. She can supports me for anything I want do, but Hazid a big NO. She knows, I will be hurt again and again. She said, "move on eca, you deserve someone better than him", I said, "he is not only better than anyone else, he is the best". No one understands me. No one. I'm all alone when I start talk about Hazid.
To my truly best friend, Athirah. I have no one, but only you to support me and Hazid. I am sorry, I told you that I moved on, I was lying you. I said that I delete his number, yes I did. But I memorize his number, I can't erase from my memory. I told you I've delete his pictures, I did. But I'd burned into CD before I delete them. I can't do that. I feel like, I'm trying to destroy my another half.
I have no one, but I have faith and Allah do listens to my doa. I've learnt not everything we want will easy to get. You should have highly motivated, patience and don't ever give up. This is some story I want to share with you. Thank you for reading this deadly post. And thank you for your time! :D
Enjoy your day
your truly love, Aish.
As I've mention about Hazid on my previous posted, today I'll share about him, again. Hahaha yes. He blocked me several time since last year, but since I put his name on my Twitter, he unblock me from all the social networks. How do I know he unblocked me? I stalked his Twitter and Whatsapp. I can see his tweets and the online is appeared. And yesterday, his name pop-up from the notification section, said that Hazid joined the Telegram. Yes, I have Telegram, but barely use it, I prefer Whatsapps. So, I poked him, just sent "Hazid?", then I fell asleep hahahaha. Early morning I checked phone, yes his name is appeared on my notification. At 10pm (something) he replied, "?". At 12am he sent "Hello there". I just replied, "Aish here". He is the only guy called me Aish or Pinkers. 2 hours later, I received another text from him, "Long time no see. How are you?". I don't know how to react. HE SUPPOSED TO UNBLOCK ME IF HE MISSES ME OKAY! Okay done. So, we had short conversation, just to knowing that we were okay and had small talked about studies life. You know, both of us kan students. I avoid to ask and questioning him if he is still mad at me.
I'm not telling this to anyone, including Tyra. She's would be extremely mad at me if she knew I still contact with Hazid. She can supports me for anything I want do, but Hazid a big NO. She knows, I will be hurt again and again. She said, "move on eca, you deserve someone better than him", I said, "he is not only better than anyone else, he is the best". No one understands me. No one. I'm all alone when I start talk about Hazid.
To my truly best friend, Athirah. I have no one, but only you to support me and Hazid. I am sorry, I told you that I moved on, I was lying you. I said that I delete his number, yes I did. But I memorize his number, I can't erase from my memory. I told you I've delete his pictures, I did. But I'd burned into CD before I delete them. I can't do that. I feel like, I'm trying to destroy my another half.
I have no one, but I have faith and Allah do listens to my doa. I've learnt not everything we want will easy to get. You should have highly motivated, patience and don't ever give up. This is some story I want to share with you. Thank you for reading this deadly post. And thank you for your time! :D
Enjoy your day
your truly love, Aish.
20 May 2015
The last day I saw him, I cried.
He is really a good friend of mine, he is also a great teacher, mentor. Sir Zaimi, you left us without say good bye, you gave us a bittersweet memories. I appreciate those moments we were together. Sir, I am the first person who found out about your resign letter before the others. I lost someone that helped me a lot in Uni, now I have to stand with my own feet. You'll be missed, thank you Sir. Sir Zaimi Zulkafli, semoga sir berjaya diluar sana.
06 April 2015
Hazid is Amm, Amm is Hazid.
Assamualaikum.
Amm? Hazid? Mereka ialah orang yang sama. Tapu kenapa lain nama? Oh, sebenarnya dia nak hide his real identity, tapi aku kenal siapa dia. Dia seorang yang sangat caring walaupun dia tak tunjuk yang dia caring, but his is really a care person. We've talked too much about our problems, macam biasa dia sentiasa dengar masalah aku dulu, baru dia cerita masalah dia pulak.
Tapi haritu dia tergurau kasar, dan aku tersentap sikit; sekarang ni dia dah jarang reply text, mungkin takut aku terasa lagi. Entah la kenapa, aku tak boleh nak merajuk lama-lama, tak boleh nak marah dia pun. Aku takut kehilangan dia sekali lagi. Jujur aku cakap, aku dah tak sanggup nak kehilangan dia utk sekali lagi. Aku betul-betul dah tak sanggup :(
Aku tak pernah pandang mana-mana lelaki dekat college, sebab aku tak nak dia rasa seolah-olah aku mencari pengganti utk tempat dia. Dia patut tahu, bukan senang aku nak lupakan dia, inikan pula nak cari pengganti.
Hey, ingat aku senang-senang je ke nak lupakan hang? ingat senang-senang je ke aku nak lepaskan hang? tunggu bila aku mati dulu, baru hang tahu. aku rindu :(
Amm? Hazid? Mereka ialah orang yang sama. Tapu kenapa lain nama? Oh, sebenarnya dia nak hide his real identity, tapi aku kenal siapa dia. Dia seorang yang sangat caring walaupun dia tak tunjuk yang dia caring, but his is really a care person. We've talked too much about our problems, macam biasa dia sentiasa dengar masalah aku dulu, baru dia cerita masalah dia pulak.
Tapi haritu dia tergurau kasar, dan aku tersentap sikit; sekarang ni dia dah jarang reply text, mungkin takut aku terasa lagi. Entah la kenapa, aku tak boleh nak merajuk lama-lama, tak boleh nak marah dia pun. Aku takut kehilangan dia sekali lagi. Jujur aku cakap, aku dah tak sanggup nak kehilangan dia utk sekali lagi. Aku betul-betul dah tak sanggup :(
Aku tak pernah pandang mana-mana lelaki dekat college, sebab aku tak nak dia rasa seolah-olah aku mencari pengganti utk tempat dia. Dia patut tahu, bukan senang aku nak lupakan dia, inikan pula nak cari pengganti.
Hey, ingat aku senang-senang je ke nak lupakan hang? ingat senang-senang je ke aku nak lepaskan hang? tunggu bila aku mati dulu, baru hang tahu. aku rindu :(
23 March 2015
232km away.
Assalamualaikum semua, apa khabar? sihat?
hmm, kenapa tittle 232km away? sebab aku kira2 dari Selangor nak ke Muadzam Shah, Pahang 232km. siapa yang tinggal dekat Muadzam tu? Hazid :)
yeap, Hazid belajar dekat UNITEN branch Muadzam. dia banyak bercerita keadaan dia dekat sana. macam mana pergaulan dia, aktiviti dia, dan macam-macam lagilah senang cerita. Dia selalu cerita yang dia dia pergi mana-mana selalu sorang2. haritu dia ajak aku sambung master dengan dia, tapi aku takut aku salah faham niat dia. mungkin niat dia ajak aku hanya sebagai kawan, tapi aku mungkin dah tersalah faham. entah la. dia baik, terlalu baik. sampai aku kadang2 rasa bersalah dekat dia. aku sebenarnya terfikir nak lepaskan dia, tapi aku tak sanggup nak lepaskan dia. walaupun dah banyak kali dia cuba push me away from him, tapi aku tetap kembali ke dia and he treat me well.
I'm impressed when he said he listen to KARA's song, like SERIOUSLY HAZID? aku nak dia jadi diri dia, aku tak nak ubah dia apa2. sebab aku suka diri dia yang sebenarnya, sebab hati aku suka dia. hati aku dah nekad nak dia. walaupun aku kadang2 suka orang lain secara suka2, tapi tak pernah dalam sehari tu aku lupa dekat hazid. aku selalu ingat dia, setiap masa. dekat mana pun aku, aku bawa ingatan aku tentang dia dengan aku. mungkin kami dah jarang whatsapp, but still we will contact each other bila ada masa. Hazid sangat sempurna, terlalu sempurna utk aku.
Hazid, try la berkawan dgn semua orang walaupun hang tak suka orang tu. try ja okay? aku tetap support hang macam selalu. aku selalu doakan yang terbaik utk hang. aku sayang hang sebagai kawan, sahabat dan seseorang yang telah berjaya mengetuk pintu aku sekali lagi. Terima kasih Zid :)
hmm, kenapa tittle 232km away? sebab aku kira2 dari Selangor nak ke Muadzam Shah, Pahang 232km. siapa yang tinggal dekat Muadzam tu? Hazid :)
yeap, Hazid belajar dekat UNITEN branch Muadzam. dia banyak bercerita keadaan dia dekat sana. macam mana pergaulan dia, aktiviti dia, dan macam-macam lagilah senang cerita. Dia selalu cerita yang dia dia pergi mana-mana selalu sorang2. haritu dia ajak aku sambung master dengan dia, tapi aku takut aku salah faham niat dia. mungkin niat dia ajak aku hanya sebagai kawan, tapi aku mungkin dah tersalah faham. entah la. dia baik, terlalu baik. sampai aku kadang2 rasa bersalah dekat dia. aku sebenarnya terfikir nak lepaskan dia, tapi aku tak sanggup nak lepaskan dia. walaupun dah banyak kali dia cuba push me away from him, tapi aku tetap kembali ke dia and he treat me well.
I'm impressed when he said he listen to KARA's song, like SERIOUSLY HAZID? aku nak dia jadi diri dia, aku tak nak ubah dia apa2. sebab aku suka diri dia yang sebenarnya, sebab hati aku suka dia. hati aku dah nekad nak dia. walaupun aku kadang2 suka orang lain secara suka2, tapi tak pernah dalam sehari tu aku lupa dekat hazid. aku selalu ingat dia, setiap masa. dekat mana pun aku, aku bawa ingatan aku tentang dia dengan aku. mungkin kami dah jarang whatsapp, but still we will contact each other bila ada masa. Hazid sangat sempurna, terlalu sempurna utk aku.
Hazid, try la berkawan dgn semua orang walaupun hang tak suka orang tu. try ja okay? aku tetap support hang macam selalu. aku selalu doakan yang terbaik utk hang. aku sayang hang sebagai kawan, sahabat dan seseorang yang telah berjaya mengetuk pintu aku sekali lagi. Terima kasih Zid :)
13 February 2015
sekepala dan kami gila.
Assalamualaikum readers. Apa khabar?
Maaf, pertama sekali saya ingin memberi satu berita yang agak mengejutkan seluruh rakyat Malaysia tentang kepemergian mantan Menteri Besar Kelantan iaitu Almarhum Tuan Guru Nik Aziz. Al-Fatihah. Moga-moga Allah memerlihara jasad dan roh Arwah dikalangan orang-orang yang beriman disisi Allah swt.
Okay, berbalik kepada cerita kita, cerita kita? Yeap, cerita tentang aku dan Hazid, seperti biasalah :p
Kenapa tittle macam tu? apa yang sekepala? apa yang gila? Hazid pernah bagitahu aku yang aku ni pelik macam dia. itu sebenarnya 1 pujian pada aku, ada persamaan antara kami, pelik, gila2 dan egoist. 2 malam sebelum ni aku ajak dia join clan utk CoC, pada mula dia cakap dia dah nak war. Tapi tak lama tu dia cakap, yelah aku join. aku bagitahu dia yang dalam clan tu ada adik aku, dia boleh cakap yang dia segan. SEGAN? HAHAHAHA comelnyaaaaa.
Lepas dia joined our clan tu, dia introduced himself from Philippines. then I replied said that I'm Aishuleta from Utah. hahaha. lepas tu dia tanya mana Afnan (adik aku yang form 3 tu). aku cakap dia dah tidur, dia cakap bagus tu dik, jangan jadi macam kitorang. Then I asked him, sape kitorang? Dia cuma mampu replied krik krik.
You don't even know how you could makes me smile in any ways. even for a small things you've done, you did it well. I love you, love you for rest of my life. I smiling while I'm typing this, sayang.
I love you :)
Maaf, pertama sekali saya ingin memberi satu berita yang agak mengejutkan seluruh rakyat Malaysia tentang kepemergian mantan Menteri Besar Kelantan iaitu Almarhum Tuan Guru Nik Aziz. Al-Fatihah. Moga-moga Allah memerlihara jasad dan roh Arwah dikalangan orang-orang yang beriman disisi Allah swt.
Okay, berbalik kepada cerita kita, cerita kita? Yeap, cerita tentang aku dan Hazid, seperti biasalah :p
Kenapa tittle macam tu? apa yang sekepala? apa yang gila? Hazid pernah bagitahu aku yang aku ni pelik macam dia. itu sebenarnya 1 pujian pada aku, ada persamaan antara kami, pelik, gila2 dan egoist. 2 malam sebelum ni aku ajak dia join clan utk CoC, pada mula dia cakap dia dah nak war. Tapi tak lama tu dia cakap, yelah aku join. aku bagitahu dia yang dalam clan tu ada adik aku, dia boleh cakap yang dia segan. SEGAN? HAHAHAHA comelnyaaaaa.
Lepas dia joined our clan tu, dia introduced himself from Philippines. then I replied said that I'm Aishuleta from Utah. hahaha. lepas tu dia tanya mana Afnan (adik aku yang form 3 tu). aku cakap dia dah tidur, dia cakap bagus tu dik, jangan jadi macam kitorang. Then I asked him, sape kitorang? Dia cuma mampu replied krik krik.
You don't even know how you could makes me smile in any ways. even for a small things you've done, you did it well. I love you, love you for rest of my life. I smiling while I'm typing this, sayang.
I love you :)
09 February 2015
Assalamualaikum readers~
Cerita untuk entry kali ini tak adalah special sangat, cuma nak share serba sedikit tentang kehidupan kebelakangan ni. Apa cerita tu? Meh la nak cerita ni.
Last week kan, kita ada trip pergi ke Melaka (supposed to Penang, but Penang was only for culinary students), tapi takpelah, okay lah kan Melaka pun. Okay, cerita tentang Melaka, hmm it wasn't what I expected
Cerita untuk entry kali ini tak adalah special sangat, cuma nak share serba sedikit tentang kehidupan kebelakangan ni. Apa cerita tu? Meh la nak cerita ni.
Last week kan, kita ada trip pergi ke Melaka (supposed to Penang, but Penang was only for culinary students), tapi takpelah, okay lah kan Melaka pun. Okay, cerita tentang Melaka, hmm it wasn't what I expected
22 January 2015
Hazid, he made me smile again
Hazid, terima kasih sebab sudi jadi kawan aku balik, jadi pendengar ynag setia seperti dulu, jadi peneman yang sentiasa ada dengan aku. dengar segala keluhan, keresahan dan kebimbangan aku. Terima kasih sebab sudi tenangkan aku masa aku sedih, walaupun hang ni kadang2 annoyed gile tahu. Tapi tu pun dah cukup buat aku happy bila ada dengan hang, maksud aku masa dalam chat. Hazid, nanti jangan lupa makan ubat, jaga diri, jaga makan, jaga semua k. Nanti kalau aku dah tak ada nanti, hang jangan sedih, tapi teruskan je gembira macam biasa k.
Apa2 pun, thanks for everything you've done to me, you're always the best. Love you, take care <3 p="">
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